Monday, November 20, 2006

Can't Sleep

I have a defect. Perfectionism. I am not perfect: that is the problem. Tonight while trying to fall asleep, I realized I had made a small mistake at work today. Nothing catastrophic. It could make me look like a doofus if my boss has to find out, but I don't think that will happen.

Anyway, I am now unable to sleep.

I do this all the time. I make a mistake and I act like it's the end of the world. "Oh no! People will actually realize that I am prone to error." Let the overreacting and irritable bowel begin. Could someone please help me gain some perspective, here?

PS - To Mom again, you'll notice the rant has changed slightly just to be safe. :)


The Duchess said...

I now paste cartoons all over my door at work. I find many students coming by and reading them and laughing and then they don't yell at me so much about the C they earned. of my posts is a quotation from Charles Schultz: (hasty paraphrase) sometimes I lie awake at night in bed and think, where did I go wrong. And then a voice says, this is going to take more than one night.

I like that. I am also a perfectionist, and I have the astrological sign to back it up (Virgo), but I am so hopelessly, tragically flawed that what is the point of dwelling on it when I could be dreaming about George Clooney.

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry your perfectionism is causing problems. Don't know where you picked up that gene!!!

P.S. Thanks for editing your rant. As experience has taught us, be very careful what you put in writing! You never know who will be reading it!